Fairytale

I'm torn apart by the thought of you.
By my side, as you sleep
I think of uncertainties,
And Happiness.

In the other world,
I saw,
A rail.

I looked at one direction
Trying to see a train
Or where the rail would end.

Behind me,
There was a railway with an end
I didn't see.

I kept looking
Until I heard the sound of a train
Coming towards me.

My desire to lie down and
End as simple
As dramatic
As a western movie
Was strong but not as strong
As your eyes when you get upset.

I turned around,
Fast,
And put myself back together

Smiling once more,
Sometimes laughing,
Talking silliness
Making jokes,
Existing like always.

You are stronger than me,
I am stronger than them.

I can erase them temporarily,
I know they won't go away.

I find myself torn apart by the thought of you,
By the thought of leaving you,
Leaving everyone else.

I find myself torn apart by the thought of me,
And what is important,
And who I am.