Alleviation

I just got here
I wish I was elsewhere,
Nowhere

I want to say please
But I don’t have strength
I have bruises in my hands
I have cuts and marks
In my whole body

Fighting, the non-stop art of believing
And giving up,
And searching again,

I watch others gaze
I think I made a difference
Or changed an instant
But everything is just the same

The pathetic art of life
Pretending, making-believe
I want shout the most stupid words
I want to ask for help but I know there’s no one to listen

Vain words, silliness of mind
Tired, a strong sharp pain in my heart
Every thing seem to change
Something pulls me back to show me
What reality really is

I listen to these sounds,
I listen to this song
I’ve done this before
And once more
Here I am

I teach hope
But how can I?
I’m forgetting what it is

I can’t talk
Who can understand?
It seems so simple,
Yet so complicated

Do you know how it feels to abandon dream?
Not one, but all of them
All at once
And slowly recovering
Slowing building the foundation
For new ones to develop
For a sincere smile
Shown

But no, you can’t have dreams
Why should you?
They just make you worse

Why don’t you realize?
That things are never going to be easy
Enduring bellicosity
You know it is three times harder
And will always be

You are never going to pass
This level
The underneath, the below
No matter how many doors open
How many barriers you trespass

Breathe
Please let me breathe for a moment

Why is it so hard?
Please tell me,
I shouldn’t be letting this tears roll down on my face
And this cries of desperation

I can’t hold, I can’t hold

I needed a paper,
But instead got a screen
To read the letters one by one
Written on a fictional piece of paper
And instead of losing
Finding relief...

Breathe
Breathe